Posts Tagged ‘transition

08
Aug
09

I Am Transreal, pt. 2 [augmentology.com]

I am becoming something else. In this moment, this being-in-transition, I am willfully stepping into the unknown. I am between realities. I can only imagine what I want to become, and then choose to become that new thing, but it is radically ungraspable, inconceivable. I can never know the reality of what I am choosing to become, desiring to become. My decision to transform can never be the right one, because it is always based on an illusion, a fantasy, a false conception with only a few points of data, not the rich details of an embodied life. As the transformation unfolds, those unknown events begin to occur, like seeing my breasts in the mirror for the first time after shaving my chest closely, feeling the movement in my orgasm change into something new or just walking down the street for a moment as a girl, unnoticed and not needing any special attention. My decision to become something else is always a decision to become mythopoetic, because the reality of the new state is always unknown, imaginary, a construct, a fantasy. Yet I don’t seek to decry this radical state of uncertainty but to embrace it. The very moments of everyday perception are also simply intersections of a real materiality with my symbolic and imaginary processing engines making sense of them, down to the way that I understand what pleasure is and what pain is and when the two become too close so as to be confused. And a choice to not transform is of course still a choice to transform into a different state, as our bodies are all in permanent transition, aging, training, consuming, producing, perceiving, creating new folds in our craniums.

Read the rest at Augmentology.com and leave a comment! I’d love to know what you think of this writing…

26
Mar
09

Becoming Dragon on cover of the San Diego Reader and at Open Studios

Guess who’s on the cover of the San Diego Reader this week? ME! So pick up a copy and check it out, or read it online here and leave the author a comment!

I’m very happy, and very annoyed with this article on the cover of this week’s issue of the major San Diego weekly publication. I’m happy that the project is getting so much exposure. I’m very unhappy that the author chose to ignore my choice of pronouns, present the whole project as some mad scientist project “at tax payer’s expense” and put a ridiculous picture on the cover instead of one of the many photos and second life screenshots from the performance. At least the author had the courage to admit at the end of the article that I told him what pronouns to use and that he chose not to. Overall, I think that he quoted me at length, and accurately, on the core issues on the performance, which I really appreciate.

Also, if you’d like to see documentation of Becoming Dragon, life size, up close and personal, come to Open Studios at UCSD next Saturday, April 4th!

19
Jan
09

Becoming Dragon in LA and San Jose

Whew! I have a super busy week with two events where I’m presenting Becoming Dragon. If you’re in LA or San Jose or the bay area, come see me! Today I’m finishing installing a large installation with prints and video at Supersonic 2009, the show of southern california graduating MFA’s from a number of different schools. That show is at the LA convention center and is open to the public on Thursday the 22nd and stays up until Sunday the 25th.There are so many amazing artists in this show, you have to come see it!

Also, I’m giving a talk about my experience of Becoming Dragon in San Jose, on Thursday the 22nd at 11:30am at the Engineering Reality of Virtual Reality conference put on by the Society of Photonic Imaging Engineers. It’s at the San Jose convention center.

04
Jan
09

More RL photos of Becoming Dragon

Here are some more real life photos of Becoming Dragon, including the last few days, the closing party and the very last moments of the performance.

22
Dec
08

Online-world immersion probes ‘possibilities of transformation’

Today’s Sunday paper featured Becoming Dragon on the front page of the morning edition! Read the article below…

http://www3.signonsandiego.com/stories/2008/dec/21/1a21virtual162313-online-world-immersion-probes-po/?uniontrib

19
Dec
08

2 days later

Hello everyone,

The end of the performance was wonderful. Friends stayed in world until the very end. I am so grateful to everyone.

It is two days after the perfomance and I feel much better. I saw my doctor and my blood pressure is a little high and my vision is back to 20/20. I don’t feel 100% better, but mostly better. I think it’ll only be a few days.

I just wanted to post this video that calit2 made. Enjoy…

Watch it in HD here! (It looks much better in HD)

17
Dec
08

thoughts on becoming, day 16

Something came to me yesterday that is important to me, and forgot to tell people many times, so I’m posting it here.

Many times people have asked me if I feel more like a dragon, and now that I’m coming to the conclusion of the performance, I’m sure the question will come up even more. An important part of this performance to remember is that it about Becoming almost more than it is about Dragon.

What I intended to do with this performance was to look closely at becoming and transition, and someone like myself who is permanently in transition, not on a trajectory towards an end point, not in a teleology, but inhabiting and exploring the liminal state as much as possible.

This is part of why the Shamanic tradition was interesting to me and has become very important to me, in relation to performance in particular, as a practice of entering a liminal state.

So, when someone asks me if I feel more like a dragon now, my answer should be something like this. Yes, I do growl, snarl and roar more ften in response to questions, and I do so by calling up my Heads Up Display and pressing the button for growl, snarl or roar. I have been exploring the state of becoming by inhabiting the liminal space of Second Life. So, as a Second Life dragon, I can shapeshift by calling up forms from my inventory, I can teleport to places by activating landmark cards I have been given and I can make my body glow by going into the build window and increasing the glow value to 0.50. I do feel more like someone who is becoming dragon using virtual worlds, I am used to dealing with my heavy VGA and USB twisted tail, and am used to the soreness of my forehead, nose and eyes.

Just as with gender, I am interesting in exploring and inhabiting forms and modes of being outside of the binary, just as I am not male or female, I’m not human or dragon, but a Second Life dragon, or being-dragon-in-second-life, to think of heidegger and modes of being in the world, or the multiplicity of virtual dragons unfolding from potentality into and from the plane of immanence, to invoke Deleuze and Guattari.




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